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Damn the pants!
Jun. 19th, 2005 04:53 amYou know, I need to stop taking things so seriously. About five minutes or so after my last post mom came in and told me that I could borrow $200 _IF_ I made sure to pay it back on the first, which means I’d better not slip up at work, but you know what? It doesn’t matter because since I quit my other job; I won’t get stressed out on the job as much.
What amuses me is that I think fate likes to slap me around, not because it hates me or anything, but because I need to be reminded that my ego isn’t the center of the universe. It does that by in this case; giving me reason to hope, smashing the reasons to bits right before my eyes, then after I make I giant idiot of myself, pulls out the real truth of the matter and laughs, “see it will all work out in the end, don’t you have egg on your face after making a big deal like that?”
So now I’m chuckling at myself. The past few weeks I’ve been in a deep blue funk abut everything and now I can finally look back on it without the haze of LJ-type wangst. Ok, so one of the people I consider my best friends may be moving to Japan, so what? That’s what instant messaging, e-mail, and the occasional con is for. Plus I need to be happy that she’s moving on with her life instead of staying in place I ended up doing for a few years now. Good on the girl.
And if I don’t get all the parts for my computer right away? Again, no big deal. I’ve lived well enough on this thing. If worse comes to worse I can still get parts when the funds come along and I should still be fine for the turn-in date for the yaoi-con’s AMV contest. Besides, I need to contact an old friend to talk about my PC anyway.
And the series I’ve been wanting to get a hold of and caused an argument or two over? Yeah, my friend’s paying me back for when I did her a favor, but she’s also spending money and time to do so. Perhaps in the next week I’ll drop by with a bunch of CD-r’s just to make it a little easier on the girl. (Plus she’s getting the talk from her mom about jobage, she most likely only has so many hours in the day to burn the CD’s)… Plus I have to be a little more easy on her considering the other part of the favor she already did for me, (that I have yet to try out, but oh I hope to do soon).
And lastly my apartment woes? I can deal with them. Yes I need to get out of here and soon, but getting to the point where I throw up blood? Isn’t going to make the time when I move out come any sooner. And also the more time spent preparing, the less worries I’ll have when I do move out…plus if I do manage to end up going alone on that, at least I won’t have to deal with any potential griping about how my roommates don’t like dogs.
On another note, I just noticed that a one-shot I wrote an age and a day ago has about 295 hits on aff.net (posted there because I=lazy and that cesspit wasn’t as bad when I flung it up there)… okay just _who_ is reading that thing? Really, I mean nearly 300? That’s one _bored_ person hitting the refresh page there. And it has three reviews… dude, that thing wasn’t even worth one review from my friend. *smirk* on the upside two out of three of the reviews are badly written and by people without accounts.
Heh, life is amusing me right now. *raises a toast to coyote*
What amuses me is that I think fate likes to slap me around, not because it hates me or anything, but because I need to be reminded that my ego isn’t the center of the universe. It does that by in this case; giving me reason to hope, smashing the reasons to bits right before my eyes, then after I make I giant idiot of myself, pulls out the real truth of the matter and laughs, “see it will all work out in the end, don’t you have egg on your face after making a big deal like that?”
So now I’m chuckling at myself. The past few weeks I’ve been in a deep blue funk abut everything and now I can finally look back on it without the haze of LJ-type wangst. Ok, so one of the people I consider my best friends may be moving to Japan, so what? That’s what instant messaging, e-mail, and the occasional con is for. Plus I need to be happy that she’s moving on with her life instead of staying in place I ended up doing for a few years now. Good on the girl.
And if I don’t get all the parts for my computer right away? Again, no big deal. I’ve lived well enough on this thing. If worse comes to worse I can still get parts when the funds come along and I should still be fine for the turn-in date for the yaoi-con’s AMV contest. Besides, I need to contact an old friend to talk about my PC anyway.
And the series I’ve been wanting to get a hold of and caused an argument or two over? Yeah, my friend’s paying me back for when I did her a favor, but she’s also spending money and time to do so. Perhaps in the next week I’ll drop by with a bunch of CD-r’s just to make it a little easier on the girl. (Plus she’s getting the talk from her mom about jobage, she most likely only has so many hours in the day to burn the CD’s)… Plus I have to be a little more easy on her considering the other part of the favor she already did for me, (that I have yet to try out, but oh I hope to do soon).
And lastly my apartment woes? I can deal with them. Yes I need to get out of here and soon, but getting to the point where I throw up blood? Isn’t going to make the time when I move out come any sooner. And also the more time spent preparing, the less worries I’ll have when I do move out…plus if I do manage to end up going alone on that, at least I won’t have to deal with any potential griping about how my roommates don’t like dogs.
On another note, I just noticed that a one-shot I wrote an age and a day ago has about 295 hits on aff.net (posted there because I=lazy and that cesspit wasn’t as bad when I flung it up there)… okay just _who_ is reading that thing? Really, I mean nearly 300? That’s one _bored_ person hitting the refresh page there. And it has three reviews… dude, that thing wasn’t even worth one review from my friend. *smirk* on the upside two out of three of the reviews are badly written and by people without accounts.
Heh, life is amusing me right now. *raises a toast to coyote*
