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Dear body/senses;
Sep. 13th, 2007 06:39 pmYou know that thing where you completely fizz out on me and I normally get frightened? Go the fuck ahead. Yeah you heard me, just turn off for a little bit, I’m giving you a carte blanche here. You know when I just can’t deal with things anymore and this is one of those times; so the moment I get to my work for the overnight, feel free to go nuts.
For those not in the know; dad just called. Which normally I’m fine with dad, it’s a complicated situation, but I can be fine with him around, I even enjoy spending time with him. It’s the politics that always come up that fries every conceivable aspect of my being and self-worth. Add to that how I can’t even get state insurance to save my life (pun not intended), and my boss coming down on me for trying to have a somewhat convenient schedule, and you have one Basil who just wants everything to go away for a bit.
Plus I found out that I tend to have low blood sugar (83 an hour after eating), which does explain a lot; but considering my mood, I just really want to let it ride and see what happens. Hey if something bad happens and I get mentally or physically hurt, perhaps I can apply for Medi-cal.
So yeah, this isn’t a happy note, but like the last few months posts, that seems to be a trend. I don’t like it being a trend; but if you can’t flail and whinge at my own ranting wall, where can I do it?
For those not in the know; dad just called. Which normally I’m fine with dad, it’s a complicated situation, but I can be fine with him around, I even enjoy spending time with him. It’s the politics that always come up that fries every conceivable aspect of my being and self-worth. Add to that how I can’t even get state insurance to save my life (pun not intended), and my boss coming down on me for trying to have a somewhat convenient schedule, and you have one Basil who just wants everything to go away for a bit.
Plus I found out that I tend to have low blood sugar (83 an hour after eating), which does explain a lot; but considering my mood, I just really want to let it ride and see what happens. Hey if something bad happens and I get mentally or physically hurt, perhaps I can apply for Medi-cal.
So yeah, this isn’t a happy note, but like the last few months posts, that seems to be a trend. I don’t like it being a trend; but if you can’t flail and whinge at my own ranting wall, where can I do it?
