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basilmemories) wrote2009-03-18 07:06 am
basilmemories) wrote2009-03-18 07:06 am
Sleep is for the weak, apparently.
Yeah I admit it, I just pulled an all-nighter, but hopefully I'll get a job interview out of it. "needs to be proficient in graphics design and with computer programs" GEE I DONNO, AM I GUYS? DO I HAVE A CHANCE?
Also I keep forgetting to respond to the comments on here but, thank you. Thank you each and every one of you for being there for me when I bitch about things. Uh just as a comment though about the "get out of there" thing... I'm shooting for it, first I need a job though, and to get a ride for my shit when I do try and move out, and also possibly someone to be there with me when I tell mom so she doesn't go insane on me. But! honestly the hardest thing right now is the job part.
Another thing that keeps coming up is my, erm, sleep problems. Not that I'm really trying to be unhealthy,she said while having instant noodles and coffee for breakfast but I'm not sure I've really mentioned why I don't exactly like sleeping at night unless I'm with other people.
So the truth is... well I get nightmares. To be honest I've gotten them for as long as I remember, and I don't want to make a big deal out of it if they're just as bad as other people's... but even when I was a kid they were pretty horrible and frequent.
I'm not talking "noes a monster is under my bed!", even if those happened too, I'm talking "there's this guy/animal/living object and it wants to KILL ME". Okay pretty normal yes? Notsomuch when 8/10 times they pull it off. now when I was a kid it wasn't as violent and death was a lot less often, but pretty much since I was around ten or so, disemboweling and having my eyes ripped from my sockets has become a main feature. I know why these images are so frequent, but that doesn't exactly help when one is being chased by an eyeless, rusty-sheared figure who wants to decorate the walls with your intestines.
Now why hasn't this come up before? You might ask. Well, normally when I'm visiting/being visited or at a con, I'm with people I know and trust, and that helps the comfort levels quite a bit. Also when I'm at cons I'm usually exhausted when I do sack it, so I don't really dream anyway. Yeah I should probably ask a shrink what "dying in your dreams 3/4th of the time" means, but I'd rather work on other things besides that.
So now you know about my fail!sleep patterns.
Izzypleasedon'tkickmefivemilliontimes
Also I keep forgetting to respond to the comments on here but, thank you. Thank you each and every one of you for being there for me when I bitch about things. Uh just as a comment though about the "get out of there" thing... I'm shooting for it, first I need a job though, and to get a ride for my shit when I do try and move out, and also possibly someone to be there with me when I tell mom so she doesn't go insane on me. But! honestly the hardest thing right now is the job part.
Another thing that keeps coming up is my, erm, sleep problems. Not that I'm really trying to be unhealthy,
So the truth is... well I get nightmares. To be honest I've gotten them for as long as I remember, and I don't want to make a big deal out of it if they're just as bad as other people's... but even when I was a kid they were pretty horrible and frequent.
I'm not talking "noes a monster is under my bed!", even if those happened too, I'm talking "there's this guy/animal/living object and it wants to KILL ME". Okay pretty normal yes? Notsomuch when 8/10 times they pull it off. now when I was a kid it wasn't as violent and death was a lot less often, but pretty much since I was around ten or so, disemboweling and having my eyes ripped from my sockets has become a main feature. I know why these images are so frequent, but that doesn't exactly help when one is being chased by an eyeless, rusty-sheared figure who wants to decorate the walls with your intestines.
Now why hasn't this come up before? You might ask. Well, normally when I'm visiting/being visited or at a con, I'm with people I know and trust, and that helps the comfort levels quite a bit. Also when I'm at cons I'm usually exhausted when I do sack it, so I don't really dream anyway. Yeah I should probably ask a shrink what "dying in your dreams 3/4th of the time" means, but I'd rather work on other things besides that.
So now you know about my fail!sleep patterns.
Izzypleasedon'tkickmefivemilliontimes