What the hell body?

So I crash the day before and sleep for 14 hours, then manage to stay awake for eight hours, then nap for another four. After I get back from getting a bit of an allergy heat rash, I get force fed some allergy medicine that doesn't do jack BUT STILL KNOCKS ME OUT. I can normally fight off the sleeping part of the side-effects, but not today.

Seriously body, I haven't even been depriving myself of sleep much, what the hell?

Seriously Karma, let's talk.

I know I've done shit things in my life and pretty much am getting what's coming to me, but can't I do this on an installment plan or something?

Mom has to make 70$ last until the 20th at least, and right away when I suggest she cuts out the alcohol (a good 10-20$ every few days), I get bitched at. I have to make sacrifices and eat cheap and possibly give up one of the few creature comforts I have (aka cheap-ass conditioner so my hair isn't a damn rat's nest when I wake up). Why can't she give up the bottle for two weeks?

No I understand her being in pain all the time, there's been times where my mouth and teeth have hurt so badly that I can't sleep even when I want to. But I can't get medical insurance right now, and I don't even have the 6$ it would take for me to make one trip to try and get a handout from the government, much less the number of times you have to wait in line before you might get lucky.

Fuck it, I can't stop crying and things aren't going to get any better. if she won't take a bullet so that both of us will be able to eat, I might as well go out tomorrow and get stinkin' plastered myself. Hopefully I'll end up with a bad batch of something and I'll end up in the hospital. If I'm not going to make a name for myself and end up in even more debt, I might as well do it in comfort.