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basilmemories) wrote2009-09-06 09:00 pm
basilmemories) wrote2009-09-06 09:00 pm
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Yes I'm still fucking posting about my tooth. (a letter to people who've never seen this journal)
Guess what, one post doesn't make it go away. I'm going to update about this until things change and the state/private organization covers me, or I end up dead. This really doesn't apply to people who've been reading this journal or who I talk to online, but for those people I thought were my friends offline, I'm so damn sorry that my medical situation harshes your day. I guess in between the fucking pain, the outright terror, and the being denied by a shitload of places that's supposed to help the working poor, I forgot to join in the effervescent sunshine glow of your life.
Am I being a bitch by being "ungrateful" that you're my friend? I'm pretty sure I am, and you know what? When this all ends one way or another, I will feel like total shit and apologize. Until then? I'm so sorry, but the worries about my continued existence is going to darken my general mood. It's already bad that I'm going to have to fake happy for 12 hours while people bitch at me for the price of gas/food/everything, but I can't even tell my MOTHER because she'll lose it and make it all about her.
Let me put this way: It hurts to eat, it hurts to drink, I can't sleep without having worse nightmares then before. Hell I don't even want to sleep because if I get allergies and snore during the night, then it dries out my tooth and I'm can barely think throughout the pain for over 7 hours. Trust me, I counted. But oh, a dentist can choose not to treat me if I don't have money, because a dentist doesn't treat "serious" problems, you know. I can be told that I have something that has strong possibility of making me take a dirt nap, but the same damn person won't talk to his family member dentist about letting me do a payment plan.
For those who gave me places to look? Thank you. I'm still looking, and I haven't exhausted my search yet, but if I'm a royal bitch in your general direction, you now know why.
Am I being a bitch by being "ungrateful" that you're my friend? I'm pretty sure I am, and you know what? When this all ends one way or another, I will feel like total shit and apologize. Until then? I'm so sorry, but the worries about my continued existence is going to darken my general mood. It's already bad that I'm going to have to fake happy for 12 hours while people bitch at me for the price of gas/food/everything, but I can't even tell my MOTHER because she'll lose it and make it all about her.
Let me put this way: It hurts to eat, it hurts to drink, I can't sleep without having worse nightmares then before. Hell I don't even want to sleep because if I get allergies and snore during the night, then it dries out my tooth and I'm can barely think throughout the pain for over 7 hours. Trust me, I counted. But oh, a dentist can choose not to treat me if I don't have money, because a dentist doesn't treat "serious" problems, you know. I can be told that I have something that has strong possibility of making me take a dirt nap, but the same damn person won't talk to his family member dentist about letting me do a payment plan.
For those who gave me places to look? Thank you. I'm still looking, and I haven't exhausted my search yet, but if I'm a royal bitch in your general direction, you now know why.
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Good luck and godspeed..
Okay, last edit, I think. Sorry!
That being said, I was wondering just now if you'd tried orthodontists? I know they specialize in tooth surgery, but one might be able to help? If that doesn't work, maybe you should try writing a stirring and strongly worded letter to the local newspaper about the problem. I think right now if you can get the attention of anybody or anyplace that could have influence over a dentist or two, it might just help. Mention the names of all the places that refuse to help. Obama's health care plan is the big thing right now, and this might be the sort of thing that would spur the debate along. I'm sure it's not the best angle to try, but maybe it would help. That being said, would it be possible for you to try a different city, even if you had to take a bus to get there? If you could get an appointment in another city, I might be able to come up with money to help you get there and back. Nobody should have to suffer like that, and nobody should have to worry that they might die because the humans around them are ignorant asshole fuckwads and won't help you out! How dare they call themselves humans when they turn away the people who need them the most! I mean your mom, the dentist, and your "friends" (in quotes because real friends just wouldn't act way)! They should be ashamed of themselves!
I will be praying for you this week, darling, and likely Chloe too. You helped us out before, when we were starving and scared, and I am more than willing to repay the favor. Let me know what you need, and I'll do whatever is in my power to help you out. I just can't stand to sit here and do nothing anymore!
*hugs and love*
Edit again: I also have a lot of friends in California, so I'm going to ask around and see if anybody knows a dentist or a place that will actually help you.
Re: Okay, last edit, I think. Sorry!
(Hi, I think I love you now.)
I think the newspaper bit is a fantastic idea. Make some noise, call some attention to things, be a face for the folks that are in the same boat as you right now. You're a well-spoken and passionate young woman, I think you could rock it.
That said, I'm continuing to hope and pray for you. Mom couldn't come up with any ideas, but sends her well-wishes. I really wish I could help more than that. ._.
Re: Okay, last edit, I think. Sorry!
(♥ That's fine with me. I like people who agree with me on serious matters. 8D)
Re: Okay, last edit, I think. Sorry!
This is pretty much why I'm looking around SF and the east bay. Vallejo supposedly has a lot of competition for dentists, so the rates are much cheaper there. The issue lies that there is no bus service to the area at all, and moreover there's nobody for me to rely on to spend the night there. SF has quite a few charities, but at the moment it's me mucking through red tape, and a few of the people on staff are unsure if someone who's not a sf native counts for coverage. With CA benefits drying up, more people are understandably desperate, and I wouldn't be surprised if more and more SF-based organizations are going to put more restrictions in place. As it is, there's one location that claims "they don't turn anybody away", and on Tuesday I'm going to be calling them and testing that claim.
Root canals and extractions I thought fell under orthodontic care (it's the floor they sent me to for my last root canal), so I've been talking to them first. What I've noticed is that general dentists are much more flexible then orthodontists. I'd end up having to go to a orthodontist anyway, but at least the general practice dentists tend to be more polite when they tell me off.
The local newspaper is a route I want to go if I can't get anything done. If I'm going to go out, I want to bring attention to the problems inherent in the system while I do so. I... honestly don't know how to write something that will get picked up as an article, but I'm going to fucking try. It doesn't help that whole fear aspect, but it makes me feel slightly better if I can take a corrupt system down with me.
Re: Okay, last edit, I think. Sorry!
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Kick ass, stir shit, get it done. GOOD LUCK. Especially good luck with that place that doesn't turn anyone away.
Ilu.